fear

by Terry Severhill

fear
Fear of the night
Fear of the light

fear
Fear of the dark
Fear of moon light
Fear of being afraid
Fear of someone knowing

fear
Fear of patrols
Fear of ambushes
Fear of seeing someone wounded
Fear of seeing someone killed
Fear of killing someone
Fear of causing a friend’s death
Fear of not measuring up
Fear of snipers
Fear of booby traps

fear
Fear of being wounded
Fear of not going home on a Freedom Bird
Fear of not being med-a-vaced
Fear of going home in a metal box
Fear-24/7 – fear 127 days – fear 269 more days
Fear my enemy/friend
Fear permeates my cells
Fear in my veins
Fear in my bones
Fear stains my soul
Fear that I have changed
Fear that others will know
And that they will Fear me
Fear that others will look and wonder how
I can love – care – be a
husband and a father
Fear that they will look at me
and see the color of my RAGE
And notice the Red and Black
Is the same color as my
Stained soul

fear
Fear that I’ll never be me again.

fear.

Terry Severhill has been writing poetry since 1966. A stint in the Marine Corps as a member of a CAP unit in Vietnam (1969-1970) has been the basis of many of his writings. He has been published in the San Diego Poetry Journal, Damnfino, A Quiet Courage, Mad Swirl, Red Omnivore, Soul-Lit, Drowning Gull, and was the recipient of the “Art Young’s Good Morning Memorial Award for Poetry 2016” from the Garbanzo Literary Journal. Additionally, he has appeared in six anthologies. He resides in Vista, California with his best friend and wife of forty years.

One comment

  1. “Fear stains my soul
    Fear that I have changed
    Fear that others will know
    And that they will Fear me
    Fear that others will look and wonder how>”

    Beautifully written. As a combat vet myself, I totally identify. Those five lines alone, wow… Great job sir.

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